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This community has changed tremendously over the past 6 years that I have been here, I remember starting here and many of the now popular artists were just like myself; unknown, friendly and I will be damned were they so helpful! 

DA has now became this place where people don't seem to have this tolerance for artwork and people who create art have less admiration, than those who create crap (I don't mean artwork that could be improved but I do however mean the deviations being uploaded are not unique.) 

This used to be a place where artists of all kinds could show their work and it was a lovely community. Now it seems like nobody here gives a shit about how hard someone has worked to get where they are. Over the past week or so I have been searching for the brilliant artists here whom I had forgotten long ago due to many account moves and it dawned on me how much these people have lacked in their motivation and gave up their true passion for art after having their artwork stolen, unrecognised and even as low as belittled. I don't just mean the odd few artists here... I mean over fifty well known artists!

It is such a shame to have such a feeling like this, this community was once my social life from the age of 13. I would be excited to come home from school and upload my artwork and talk to the wonderful people here (many of which have now left here for good.) It quickly became the place that made me very happy. I had a lot of good support from many people and this site made me realise just how much I needed art, how much I could learn from it and became a part of the creativity. 

I also do have the mention the premium, now core membership. I think this is rather a low blow for the admins and staff at DA. It is way too expensive for those artists wishing to earn a living from their commissions and sales. I don't think I would ever buy one if I hung around here much longer, which is one thing I was hoping to do now that I have my own bank and PayPal. There is no extra features that the premium didn't already give you and it is now more pricey. I miss things such as the original DA logo. The times before the llama badges became a big thing and people were just so sweet and generous and actually had the time to stop and chat. Has society seriously changed THAT much in the last 5-6 years??? 

Well.. my rant is now over. 

I will no longer be active and I will keep my page visible for others to see if they wish.

I will be leaving here very shortly for good.
  • Mood: Not Impressed
  • Listening to: Second Chances - Imagine Dragons

Update:


The last time I wrote a proper journal was back in may!! :noes:

Better get updating! :XD:
So.. What has happened recently?
Well I got back in college on a photography course! My college programme is great! My tutors are lovely and a lot more professional than my old college! I actually feel like I am 'learning' something and not doing something for the hell of it! I already got a merit on my first assignment which I was one of the first in my class to complete it! :D I am going to try and get to University after college is over, the nearest being for what I want to study would be either Warrington or Chester! (better save for my travel fees eh?) :) well I still have 3 years before University.
I've been doing great with my boyfriend, and have met some lovely people and made new friends (whom are full of positivity!) these past couple of weeks.

Life is much easier now than my past year and I am not scared to leave my comfort zone. 
Well I am off to college now! :dummy:

Bye all!!! :la:


.....



What is life like after assault trauma?
Well.. the true answer to that is destruction!
To yourself and those around you.
When someone has put you through that something that is so horrendous and revolting, you cannot imagine how you will survive after the attack of assault.

Those with the strongest willpower can overcome it but even then it becomes a weakness... and a matter of trust. It becomes very difficult to trust people, especially if your own family and friends shun you and make you feel more worse of a disgrace than you felt before they knew anything.

You see so many people say to those who have been abused or assaulted that they should tell those they're close to or authorities, but that can make you feel a thousand times worse, the questions, the drama, the disgust on their faces as they try to defend their own minds in disbelief. How can one truly fight this battle when they're fighting alone?
What of that person struggling the flashbacks and nightmares? do they really care? or are they just making excuses to ignore you and stop you 'putting your problems on them?'
I don't know... truth is I don't care! I have struggled abuse and assault and not one of my family members ever ask how I am! It has been a year.. my breaking points, my suffering. It was all worth it in the end to find out who really was there for me, who could show me love after I felt unloved and worthless. And to teach myself that no matter how bad the suffering, I can pull through and cope.


Short poem I wrote


Why don't you listen?
Why don't you care?
Why can't you see?
I don't want to share!

You want what you cannot have!
I want what you wont allow!
Why cant you let me?
Why do you have to doubt?

I am now 18!
Carefree and strong!
Pulling through in a matter of time!
making all efforts to my wrongs!





email me: Sotographi@hotmail.com
  • Mood: dA Love
  • Listening to: Boom Clap - Charlie XCX
  • Playing: The Last of Us
  • Drinking: Dr Pepper

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This community has changed tremendously over the past 6 years that I have been here, I remember starting here and many of the now popular artists were just like myself; unknown, friendly and I will be damned were they so helpful! 

DA has now became this place where people don't seem to have this tolerance for artwork and people who create art have less admiration, than those who create crap (I don't mean artwork that could be improved but I do however mean the deviations being uploaded are not unique.) 

This used to be a place where artists of all kinds could show their work and it was a lovely community. Now it seems like nobody here gives a shit about how hard someone has worked to get where they are. Over the past week or so I have been searching for the brilliant artists here whom I had forgotten long ago due to many account moves and it dawned on me how much these people have lacked in their motivation and gave up their true passion for art after having their artwork stolen, unrecognised and even as low as belittled. I don't just mean the odd few artists here... I mean over fifty well known artists!

It is such a shame to have such a feeling like this, this community was once my social life from the age of 13. I would be excited to come home from school and upload my artwork and talk to the wonderful people here (many of which have now left here for good.) It quickly became the place that made me very happy. I had a lot of good support from many people and this site made me realise just how much I needed art, how much I could learn from it and became a part of the creativity. 

I also do have the mention the premium, now core membership. I think this is rather a low blow for the admins and staff at DA. It is way too expensive for those artists wishing to earn a living from their commissions and sales. I don't think I would ever buy one if I hung around here much longer, which is one thing I was hoping to do now that I have my own bank and PayPal. There is no extra features that the premium didn't already give you and it is now more pricey. I miss things such as the original DA logo. The times before the llama badges became a big thing and people were just so sweet and generous and actually had the time to stop and chat. Has society seriously changed THAT much in the last 5-6 years??? 

Well.. my rant is now over. 

I will no longer be active and I will keep my page visible for others to see if they wish.

I will be leaving here very shortly for good.
  • Mood: Not Impressed
  • Listening to: Second Chances - Imagine Dragons

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Happy birthday! :party:
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A late thanks for the watch! I'm so happy you like my photos! :)
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